Celebration is like a chocolate ice cream cone on a hot summer day, if you must eat it, because if you don't it well melt.-Dan Dorcy.

Our last group meeting was a corporate celebration. We thought that the best way to learn about celebration was to experience it. Although at first we didn't what to celebrate. We were soon reminded, that our significance was nothing compared to God and that we can celebrate our lives because of this. We celebrated fellowship with each other. We celebrated the end of a long hard week. We decided to try to come up with as many parallels as we could about celebration. Some of them made no sense, others were supremely funny, and while some were an articulate description of celebration, that of which Dan Dorcy suggested. Although with the ones that made no sense we were able to not judge, but laugh at them, because we were celebrating the reuniting of our group. As things began to die down, somebody expressed there need for a spiritual guider. We all agreed with there statement. Those who had a spiritual guider, and those who didn't all concurred with the necessity. Then Dan Dorcy piped up and declared, "a spiritual guider is like a music directors, in a sense they add unity and order, to life." His tone and attitude to the phrase had a hint of a philosophical absolute truth to it, that we all broke out in laughter again.

I would like to say that I am not facing any spiritual struggles right now in my life. However, this phrase in itself, is a spiritual struggle. I believe God uses spiritual struggles to help us grow. I want to grow. So this is my struggle, because I don't feel like I'm wrestling with God about anything. However, I have notice in the past that this wrestle is a lack of prayer. A lack of asking God at night, lying on my bed, in reflection of our day, search me O, God and known my heart, test me and know me anxious thoughts see if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way of everlasting. We need to pray that God will convict us of our sins. We need to pray to receive wisdom from the all mighty sage. Wisdom and observation so that we can learn in life what God is trying to teach us. Another possibility of this "non-wrestling" time with God, could be a gift. Some may call it a feeling of peace with God. I'm not saying that I am in perfect harmony with God, I am saying that God is giving me a break. This sense of peace could be reaffirming my decision about coming to EBC, and studying what I am studying. Where as I wrestled with God about this issue of vocation throughout last semester and most of the year before.

Right now in my life, I feel like I'm not learning anything about God, I'm experiencing him. I feel like I'm just dwelling with him. Like when your dancing with a beautiful girl, sometimes you just don't want to learn about her, you just want to experience that moment with her. However this just dwelling with God creates an ultimate dilemma. It is hard to write a blog about this topic. It is hard to put such "living" into words, and honestly i would rather not. I just hope that next time, there is something to say.